Sunday, 22 May 2011

Day One

10 Things I want to say to different people

1. Please understand me for once. Yes I know you didnt mean everything you did but Im always the one to take the blame for others. You said it goes to all of us, yet you just said it to ME. and you wont say it to the others. Why. Im like the place where you vent your anger to. and It hurts, when Im the one who's always there to accompany you everywhere. So what should I do now? Become busy like the others, so I dont have to be around so much and you wont have the person to vent your anger to?  Sometimes I dont think it's fair. If you're mad at all of us, say it to ALL of us. Not just me. You selalu marah me and when I asked you why am I the only one to get blamed, you'd say "Taklah .utk semua la ni". But the you're talking to me alone. Then Id have to pass it to others. Why must I always get the first hand scolding? Why must I do everything for everyone just to free them from any responsibilities?.

2. I don't understand why you're being like this. Im srry Im not the number one in keeping in contact all the time but what did I ever do to deserve this. I even asked you to reply. Yes you kept msging me your updates but you never did ask for any reply. Even so I did call you every once in awhile. Dont lie. So why do you say that I'm treating you like a robot. Never even once I was rude to you. You've always been a someone I intend to keep forever. So why do you have to be rude to me now? Treating me like some trash on the sidewalk? Yet you're being oh so nice to the people I can BET never even contacted you all the while. Heh Kan? :) you amazed me. You should man up and tell me really straight forward if you wanna leave. Doing this, is just plain childish.

3. Im sorry I've hurt you. You're wonderful and I'm sorry you gotta be involved in all this . I know this is so typical, I never meant to hurt you. I made a mistake. And I sincerely apologize. I hope you believe me. I dont wanna be in bad terms w you.

4. Oh you, yes you, you know who you are. The person i always kept coming back to no matter how shitty things get. You for once, disgust me. You've proved yourself to me that youre the lowest of the low anyone could ever get. I dont wanna say I believe in Karma, but then again I hope one day you'd realize what you've done and at that time, an apology will be much appreciated.

5. I hope you could stop judging for once and let me live my life. As long as I dont disturb your life, there's no reason why you should disturb mine. If you dont like what you're seeing, then go. Nobody's stopping you -.- stay as far as you can.

6. You're the only one who's been there for me through thick and thin. Though we cant see each other often yet uve always remained by my side whenever I needed somebody. I could nnever imagine what id do without you :') I love you to death.

7. I dont what is it about you, or what is it that you've done. Is it a spell? that's beyond imagination. But I dont think any words can describe how you've changed my life so much is such a short time :S It's a shame how you can be fickle minded at times, and I really dont know whether you've come to stay, or just to make me smile for a short brief of time. Either way, make your words clear. Say only what you mean please. Not just what you feel like saying at the time to get what you want. Cause I could never read you.

8. I wish I could tell you everything, everything I know so that you'd realize something. But that'll be indirectly destroying your happiness and what you currently believe in. And I hate to do that.

9. STOP BEING SO EFFIN LAZY DAMN IT. LIFE IS ABOUT GIVE AND TAKE. YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO GIVE, YOU MUST LEARN TO GIVE TOO. NOT JUST ACCEPT EVERYTHING. You're not the king and I don't live to serve you -.- Learn to exchange favors cause Im getting tired of this.

10. Please be proud of me, just this once. Stop saying sarcastic words and stop making me sound like the stupidest of all. Im doing all I can to make you proud. I promise.

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