The Bad guy.

Why is it that it's always always okay if someone does a mistake

But.

When I do the same mistake, it's likeTHE WORST POSSIBLE MISTAKE ANYONE COULD EVER DO AND IT AUTOMATICALLY DEFINES ME AS A CARELESS, BAD, SILLY GIRL.


..its not fair.

Listen, listen, listen, listen, listen, listen

My personal opinion?


1. Well, I don't think the problem is what Savani said. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Malaysia is a diplomatic country after all.


2 If you considered yourself as this educated spokesperson , you should listen first to what she has to say, and answer in the proper way, there are manners in answering questions too you know?

3. You are there to shed a light on the issue. To explain . Not to win an argument by raising your voice and giving nonsence answers. IF she is wrong, help her understand. In what way do you thing humiliating will help? This was beyond obvious that you were so anxious in defending your ego and debating for the sake of well..winning.

Listen, listen, listen, listen, listen, listen

My personal opinion?


1. Well, I don't think the problem is what Savani said. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Malaysia is a diplomatic country after all.


2 If you considered yourself as this educated spokesperson , you should listen first to what she has to say, and answer in the proper way, there are manners in answering questions too you know?

3. You are there to shed a light on the issue. To explain . Not to win an argument by raising your voice and giving nonsence answers. IF she is wrong, help her understand. In what way do you thing humiliating will help? This was beyond obvious that you were so anxious in defending your ego and debating for the sake of well..winning.

Love or Obsessed

First and foremost, there are a few things I need to made clear :

1. This is just personal opinion , please read w an open mind.
2. I am not referring to anyone particular but it is based on personal experienceS,  so there you go.
3. Sorry in advance, incase :p


Now let me get this out..
*inhales deeply*

I COULD NEVER COMPREHEND GUYS WHO REFUSE TO PICK UP PHONES WHEN THEY'RE W THEIR RESPECTIVE GIRLFRIENDS.

Now, Now,

There is a thin line that separates between respecting your gf- table ethics (no phone during dinner and stuffs? ) and being purely scared that she'll throw tantrums over a silly phone call.

One example : 

Me  : *calling*

Him : *rejectcall*

Thousands of hours later...

Him : Hey Ciya sorry what's up? Sorry I was with my girlfriend. I can't pick up or she'll be mad .

REALITY CHECK

DUDE, IT'S NOT LIKE I'D GO "hey honeyboo smoochykins cuppycakes gumdrops I mish you shooo". -.-

GOD, I just need to call and see whether you can email and scan me the letter that was passed to you so I can get my job done freakin ealier. (In the case whereby the guy is a collegue )

Of course the letter thing could be any other case but you see my point ??? Of course I'd call you due to a specific reason and the specific reason could be really important . -,-

_____________________________________________________________

another example :

Him : HI CIYA HOW ARE YOUUU?  LAMA TAK DENGAR CERITA.

Me  : *not replying due to busy-ness*

Him : -15minuteslater- Hey Ciya please please please don't contact me over the next few hours cause I'm  going out w my girl. She'd kill me! 

Me :  ?? :S *wasnt even planning to reply and still not replying *

Him : Ciyaa? REPLY PLEASE. TAU TAU TAU do not contact me .

Me : *starting to get annoyed but still not replying *

Him : *call ciya to no avail*. CIYA WHERE ARE YOU ? PLEASE REPLY THIS IS IMPORTANT. i need to know that you understand. 

REALITY CHECK

OH MY GAWD. shut up already. I wasn't and still not planning on contacting you pun ? :S Still your reason is so so annoying! hahaha 

Note to guys : THAT IS NOT LOVE. That is plain .... I don't know. Unnecessary. If you are really planning on sticking to what your girlfriend wants , then for real, stop any contact whatsoever with any female species whatsoever. If you feel that is impossible, TALK TO HER ABOUT IT. Don't do it behind her back and struggles to hide it infront of her. That's just plain..messed up. You are allowed to talk to female ya know ? Talking is not cheating. ESPECIALLY when it's work 0,0

Note of girls : Can you please stop being so clingy ? Are you planning on being like this forever and ever ? You do realize it's impossible to stop him from meeting the opposite sex yea ? Don't you rather know who he's working and being frieends with rather than having him to constantly hide it from you ? COME ON. It's not loyalty when you cage him . It's loyalty when you let him be free and trust he'll stay .

-______________________-

Forever Alone Grannies

Assalamu'alaikum to Muslims,
and Good Day to everyone else!


So this is how my normal day in class looks like :

Notice one thing? no? Let me help : NO ONE WANTS TO SIT IN THE SAME ROW AS I AM.

Ahah not sure whether I smell bad or I'm incredibly annoying. But the 5 rows on the right side of the class are always full to the last chair and yet they still struggle to find a place there. It's always empty on the leftside of the class - where I sit. Or at most 10 persons. Despite the fact that I do come early before most people. HAHA. Still can't understand why -.-

Went to eat at Amin Thai Just now 

TADAAAA! (ignore syahir's unhappy face)

I got to say, went to this place once before with family and the service was SUPER SLOW!. SNAIL-SLOW! SLOW SLOW! When the food reached us, it was almost midnight :S 

And not to mention the fact that the food was a bit so-so. BIGGEST disappointed for HOURS of wait.

Explains why sangat serik nak makan situ lagi boleh tak -.-

BUTTTT..

Syahir insisted on eating there td, still couldn't figure out why he loves that place so much. Decided I might just give it another chance. And to my surprise, a Good surprise, the service was okay! And the food..

SCRUMPTIOUS

The daging merah was heavenly, the meats were tender and soft. Kailan ikan masin had just the right amount of masinness. Telur bungkus lived to the expectations. Got to say I was beyond satisfied :)

What a good change for Amin Thai! Thumbs up to the cook and workers! Will definitely go there again for the daging merah. Hehe

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And while eating, played around w the fatbooth and Agebooth on my android. Hehe these apps are priceless! Here are some photos of people I've changed to become years older or pounds heavier :p

Hi!, Comel x SaYeWz? hIkhIK. :P

 Say hello to grandpa Aye (syahir) ! Can't deny the fact that even after changing his photo to look 

like a granddad, he still look pretty..well, jambu :p You makan jamu ke apa ni? haha

 My one and only, sis-in law, grandma pah! Macam exactly rupa your mother. :p

                                       LIN!                                                      AKMAL!

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE COMEL GILA SEMUA :p

AND HELLO AGAIN.

HI! 

It's been well over a year since I last blog. :S How time flies!  Im such a bad blogger aren't I?

I don't have a particular excuse for this. Maybe I was so busy w life, maybe my life's boring or maybe..I've been holding everything inside all this while , not being able to express them out . Either way, I've stopped blogging. 

BUT HERE I AM.

Suddenly all inspired to write another entry ,

A pointless one, I must say. But tengok Lisa Surihani blog comel comel in "Istanbul Aku Datang", can't help but wonder if I can sound that adorable in my blog. ehem. 

ALSOO, I just finished this book

Got some extra time on my hands and decided to stay in and read yesterday. The book gave me so many mixed feelings I can't desccribe. Even the tag line "If you could hold on to just one memory, what would it be?"  oh what could it be? hmm..

So well theres a part of this story where Abby (the lead) decided to make a treasure chest in her laptop. Treasuring all the memorable memories she collected day to day by recording them in written form, videos, and photos. Since I dont have that kind of treasure chest in my laptop, can't help but wonder if I could use my blog for that purpose? :) hm hm.

But really, if you know youre losing your memories, which one of them that you will fight for to let it stay in your mind? Share w me if you dont mind :)

Anyways, still have a lot of work to do! Student life -.-
So more updates soon?
Ihope :)


Salam and Good day,
Ciya.

Shed a tear.

I guess Imma postpone my wasiat to people for awhile. Sorry :p But here's what in my mind now.


I called him up yesterday. Just because. I joked around, telling him I was there, right where he wanted me to be. I thought it was obvious I was kidding around as I was using my mother's phone...Even so, I couldn't help but notice there was a hint of enthusiasm in his voice as he asked me where I really was.

Like there's a pinch of hope that I might just be near. Right there with him like the old times.

At that moment, I just wanted to drop whatever I was doing, and take the next flight there. So I can have him close again ;)

Haih, this is going to be so hard.

I miss you bad.
xx,
Ciya,

AMY SEARCH - Tiada Lagi.

Ha jom feeling sikit :)

Warkah buat sahabat. ECEH *vomit*

Among the few responses I got when I told my friends I am going to accept the fast track offer. 

I'm not trying to prove anything here; they are all my dearly beloved best friends. 

And that sad feeling, is mutual.

I must say I've been exaggerating all these while. Merbok isn't THAT bad. 

I mean, I have more than enough people I need to enjoy it there. 

Just maybe..at times it's not quite suitable for a girl like me kot? 

I get bored with places, things and people easily. Sounds like a brat kan. Har har

Either way, I am totally OKAY to continue my studies there. 

I just have some personal reasons as to why I prefer taking the fast track.

But I AM feeling a bit blue.

YES, I might NOT want to go back to Merbok NOW..or tomorrow for that matters; B.U.T,  I don't think I am ready to leave that place for good either. 

I have so much going on for me there..that it does get hard to think that for a fact, my time there is over.. and there's no turning back. I'm leaving soo many people AND responsibility behind that it's heartbreaking.

I won't be able to join in anymore and I'll be missing out on so much fun and quality times I'M SURE. Thus, I am so very sad. I don't wanna be feeling left out.

SOO, in order to MAKE SURE you people will never forget me, please, allow me to be all oooey gooey and cheesy this once? :)

Imma make another post. Just to post some messages to some people :) But itll take some time as I need to find pictures and everything.

Typical Boring Day

On a typical boring day, this is how my chitchat w Ain looks like

11 minutes ago

Ciya Fakri

• Ahah sekali tk dapat en fast track
• hmm
• APPLYLA

• 

  10 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • dapat punya
  • xmau
  • 
• 

  8 minutes ago

  Ciya Fakri

  • ala
  • parents u suruh en en
• 

  7 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • xpoooooonnnnn
  • hahahaha
• 

  3 minutes ago

  Ciya Fakri

  • TEEPOOOO TEEPOOO!
    
    

• 

  3 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • betol laaa...
    
    
• 

  5 minutes ago

  Ciya Fakri

  • tahi mu cokelat kehijauan
    
    
• 

  5 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • hahaha
  • bengong
    Kau mngendap aku buang air asal?

• 

  10 minutes ago

  Ciya Fakri

  • HAHAHAHA SIALAN.
  • HAHAHHA buduh.
  • cipan kepala sembilan
• 

  7 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • hahaha
  • gila la i chat ngn you
• 

  6 minutes ago

  Ciya Fakri

  • Haahhahha bodo i terbayang la gila.
  • HAHA
  • babins.
• 

  6 minutes ago

  Zu'ain Zaizura

  • hahaha
  • sape suruh start
  • padan muka
    
    
    
    
    
    
    LOL. SEE HOW LIFELESS I AM NOW? pft :p

Whats left of us.

And so, Im having one of those moments where I don't even feel like getting out of bed. So here I am. Trying hard to distract my head from things but failing miserably. -_________- Anyhow, the week started off really well. My darlings here came down to KL. One from Perak, one from Melacca after visited his girlfriend. anyonyonyo. Took them around incase I wont be seeing them anymore after this :') I really sure do hope I will. But it's so hard to tell in the near future.

So here's the reason why I love them too much. Because they're so gay. ahha

...And somewhere along the way Amim decided to be gay-er than usual. so the camwhoring continues..

HAHA! ..and THEN he's back to his usual wannabe-rocker self. 

:) What I hate the most? it's the fact that it took me three semesters to find you wonderful peeps..

And just when I'm starting to have fun, just when you guys are starting to grow on me,

I might just be leaving soon. Bleargh.

Okay enough w the cheesy stuffs. THANK YOU FOR COMING DOWN TO VISIT MEE.

Ill miss you so much :) 

How do you go against someone who is almost perfect? Or do you just give up ?

:)

Smile and everything would get better, Ciya.

Have faith.

Sick.

Stop talking bullsh*t boleh tak J?
You're in love with everybody.

Confession.

I'm giving up. However way I see it, we are worlds apart. I could never stand a chance against her. She has everything. Appearance? Check. Money? Check. Willingness to do everything for you? Check. Socially hot? Check. She's the epitome of hot. Almost perfect. Everything anyone could ever wish for.

And me? Im at the exact opposite pole. Im just a girl next door. I don't have much to offer. Just a promise to love you dearly and to always be there for you. But I'm stubborn and headstrong;so I can't even promise that we won't fight. All I do know is that I'm heck happy and comfortable around you and if I may, I want to continue to try hard to make you happy in return.

There. a promise to try.
But yes, I do not have much to offer. So who am I kidding? I'm just wasting my time if I stay here waiting. So I need to give up, no?


Tell me if Im wrong.

Bye,

After some time of not contacting each other, I went out w that person before leaving this place.
Upon saying goodbye, he cried.
..
Got a message afterwards;

"I cried because, I actually forgot how happy I am with you. I cried cause of all people over here, I know your absence very well; and even that was when you're still close. I cried because you mean the world to me. I can lie to everyone that I don't love you anymore but I can't lie to myself. I cried because you are special"

I dont know whether to cry or smile.

I'm sorry, I know Ive put you through hell.

And through it all, it is truly a miracle that you still don't hate me.

If only there are thousands more of you..

Trust Issues.

Ayat nak manis je selalu

..

MCM TAHI. :)

no I don't trust 'em words anymore.

Adoyai.

Dear Mr Friendly that said hye to everybody :p,

IMMA MISS YOU SO SO BAD.

Each time you're around,

can't deny, I'm at my happiest. :)

So tell me theres a part of you that'll miss me too.

xx,

Ciya

HAHAHAHAH

CALCULUS OVER! :D

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

one more paper to go :) which is 5 days away.
Still..

CALCULUS OVER! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH.

lol. ooh and it's amazing how being able to answer one calculus question can make you feel
oh-so-awesome and so so pandai :p
trust me, I felt like albert einstein. hahaha

though the paper wasn't easy. it was OK. fair. :)

oh well, most of the people I know are having their last paper today. And heading straight home
Hm.


So well, BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
I know its not confirmed yet, but lets say Im going to fast track,
means this is the last time Imma see you peeps for a long time.

Gonna miss everything despite it all :') Hope to see everyone soon.

oh well,
BUT IM SO HAPPY CALCULUS IS OVER. IM FREE.
HAR HAR HAR.

Feel like kissing everybody.
FREE KISS ANYONE? :D

Tampaq Penin.

Jap.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I can't believe I got overdramatic during ECO120 paper for nothing. And now I feel reallyreally stupid.

SillyCiya.

Anyhow, Thats another paper down. Next paper, the killer one. CALCULUS.

Hehe but here's my story ;

Lucky me, some of the questions are exactly like the past years'. So I can say, Alhamdulillah I was able to answer them. So first things first, I answered all the objective questions. Only one or two I wasn't sure off.

Then I flipped through the pages. Part B four questions, Part C essay four questions.  DAMN BANYAK WEH - i thought. 

Referred to cover page to see if we get to choose which questions to answer. And ALL I ever read was "Anwer question Part A, Part B and Part C in the answer sheet given..yadayada". Something like that. And I was like dayyyymmmmm. Kena jawab semua. So many weh. Oh well. 

And then I answered all part B in one go. I tend to do that sometimes. Answer as fast as I could, and get back to it later.  That was when my stomache decided to go against me and stinging like hell. It suddenly hurts SO BAD, I couldnt even pretend I was okay anymore. I was all crippled and senget benget in my seat. But I refused to go to the toilet. Wanted to finish part B. Just my luck, the pain subsided for a bit after awhile.

When I got to essay part C, I jotted my points for each question in the question paper. Just incase. 

And then it came again. That UNBEARABLE pain in the tummy. I cant lie, it hurts so bad I felt like picking up my phone and call my mum that very second. But of course I didnt. 

Went to the toilet instead. It didnt work out. So I ended up wasting my time spending foreeeever in the toilet crying. Yes, believe me, crying. It hurts THAT bad. Even worse, I even considered dropping the paper, and take it some other time cause I thought I could never answer the questions in this condition and it broke my heart since I knew I could answer the questions. and I was oh-so-ready you let go of economics after this. So I didn't wanna retake the paper. Though it was obvious to the examiner that I was crying. a

and I was like aaaaaaaaaah! :'( no no dont wanna retaaake. I can answer this paperrrr.  Spent my own sweet time in the toilet, gathered my strength and walked back in the examination hall.

It was 15 minutes to go and I havent answered the last 2 questions. Which means Imma lose 40 marks, I thought.

So i did it as much as I could, as best as I could, and I swear my handwriting was like this :-

and the person beside me was laughing! and I was so angry >:[ 

And ofcourse not long after, the time's up! Kira kira, dalam over 12 marks jugak la hilang. 

And I got so frustrated, with hurting tummy lg, and that was it..another breakdown. I got so mad at myself and I was like.

Stupid stupid stupid. You had to have stomachache kan? You had to spend extra time in the toilet kan? You just had to take the time you had just now for granted kan? All the time in you were in the toilet, you could've used it to answer the questions properly tau? Stupid tummy. Stupidstupid Ciya. You can't afford this, dummy. Ah :'(

Fighting back my tears, I went to a friend to ask her what she answered for the questions I didnt manage to answer. And she went "eh? tk tau. tk jawab". Dengan relaksnya. So I asked her why tk jawab. er she flipped to the front page, showed me one of the instructions that I somehow FAILED to read no matter how many times Ive flipped to the front page. It stated there "ANSWER TWO QUESTIONS FROM PART C".

TWO. T-W-O. 2. 

And I just had, had to push myself to answer all the freakin four questions and got so emotional for not being able to answer the last two -___________________________________- Kesian tummy I kena marah.

And that little time I couldve used to check my answer at part B and A but didnt.

HAR HAR.

And I feel sillier than ever. -.-

xx,

Ciya

Tummy is still hurting.